Epiphany....kinda.

My entire life I have always been a little on the heavy side. Here is the funny thing, I never really considered myself to be a fat guy. I was always active. I played sports in school. I played basketball with friends on the weekend. A few of us even had a weekly 4 mile walk that we would do. Good times.

I've never really been plagued with fat symptoms. Sure I got winded going up a couple flights of stairs but who doesn't. Every doctor visit gave me a clean bill of health. No high blood pressure, no high cholesterol, no diabetes. The doctors always gave me a 'you're pretty healthy' with a hint of surprise in their tone.

The last few months I have been feeling things go down hill. Although I have always had trouble sleeping, the last year has been really difficult. My arms actually fall asleep in the middle of the night and usually wakes me. I have been having more back aches lately, especially after being on my feet after a few hours. Obviously a result of the growing size of my gut. I have noticed my walk becoming more of a waddle. I am getting fatter.

The realization came when I was on a shoot last week. Ever since I became a producer a few years ago I have been doing a lot less of my own work and rely on a crew to do everything. I'm getting soft. On this particular shoot we were out of town with a small crew and a really tight shooting schedule with multiple setups. I had to actually work on this one. I had trouble bending over to pick up the cables. Of course my back was killing me. I was exhausted. That night I went home and wieghed myself.

I am now over 300 pounds. It's really hard for me to accept this.

So I have decided to try and do something about it. I have reduced my meal portions. I have taken up walking alot more. My goal is to be at least 25 pounds lighter by this time next year. We'll see how things go.

late night bloggin'

blooging from my iPhone. Way cool.