Epiphany....kinda.

My entire life I have always been a little on the heavy side. Here is the funny thing, I never really considered myself to be a fat guy. I was always active. I played sports in school. I played basketball with friends on the weekend. A few of us even had a weekly 4 mile walk that we would do. Good times.

I've never really been plagued with fat symptoms. Sure I got winded going up a couple flights of stairs but who doesn't. Every doctor visit gave me a clean bill of health. No high blood pressure, no high cholesterol, no diabetes. The doctors always gave me a 'you're pretty healthy' with a hint of surprise in their tone.

The last few months I have been feeling things go down hill. Although I have always had trouble sleeping, the last year has been really difficult. My arms actually fall asleep in the middle of the night and usually wakes me. I have been having more back aches lately, especially after being on my feet after a few hours. Obviously a result of the growing size of my gut. I have noticed my walk becoming more of a waddle. I am getting fatter.

The realization came when I was on a shoot last week. Ever since I became a producer a few years ago I have been doing a lot less of my own work and rely on a crew to do everything. I'm getting soft. On this particular shoot we were out of town with a small crew and a really tight shooting schedule with multiple setups. I had to actually work on this one. I had trouble bending over to pick up the cables. Of course my back was killing me. I was exhausted. That night I went home and wieghed myself.

I am now over 300 pounds. It's really hard for me to accept this.

So I have decided to try and do something about it. I have reduced my meal portions. I have taken up walking alot more. My goal is to be at least 25 pounds lighter by this time next year. We'll see how things go.